BlogHer paid me to read this book and write a review. The words and thoughts are my own, as if you couldn't tell.
I've been spending time lately trying to calm myself. I have mentioned this before, that I'm a person who tends to spaz and freak out about stuff. And while I tend to overthink pretty much everything in my life, I am pretty terrible at staying on track with stuff.
For example, I have my paper day planner; my iPhone calendar, notes, and reminders; my Things app for my phone and computer; and TWO calendars in my office at home. Plus the work calendars. And yet, even after setting TWO ALARMS on my phone, I managed to forget to leave work for my hair appointment until 5 minutes after the appointment started.
I WANT to be able to plan. To pick a spot and get there. And I keep thinking that if I just keep trying to organize it, if I just find that miracle cure, I WILL get there.
So the latest is a journal called My Life Map by Kate and David Marshall that we're discussing at BlogHer. It's actually a nice way to ease into the idea of planning for your future in a non-scary, non-OCD-specific manner. When planning, I tend to default to my usual, "I have to come up with the OPTIMAL way that this will work, and if there is one small deviation, then everything in the world will fall apart and I will not reach my goal of BEING A WRITER/GETTING A MACARTHUR GENIUS AWARD/BECOMING QUEEN OF THE UNIVERSE." [I believe in having lofty goals.]
I like this journal because it's very low-key. It gives you time to think [i.e. Top-10 Significant Events] but it never pressures you into creating the RIGHT response. It's a nice way for me to step back and actually ponder what it is I want and WHY.
Of course, the hardest part was writing in pen. Because holy shit, what if I changed my mind? Do they even make White*Out anymore? But that always looks so lumpy and terrible! I did it anyway, which I think is a big step. We'll see how this goes. Maybe I will be able to map out the non-scary way to get to my goal.
What about you? Are you a planner? Or do you just go with it?