Not the cool MIA - I wasn't making Paper Airplanes or doing badass stuff onstage at the Super Bowl Halftime Show.
Instead, I took an unscheduled sabbatical.
I was in something of a blogging funk. Not that I didn't have thoughts swirling around, but the thoughts were mostly thus:
OHMYFUCKINGGOD, MY KID IS IN THE PATH OF A HURRICANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, not really conducive to writing anything coherent. I spent the best part of last week constantly refreshing The Washington Post, The New York Times, Weather.com, and Wonkette [for comic relief], while keeping myself to a schedule of only texting the girl every 2.5 hours, because I didn't want to freak her out or drain her phone battery. I was probably not the most productive employee.
The girl was fine. Her school lost power, but she spent a few days at a friend's house - where they had also lost power. Some of the area businesses had power, so they spent time shopping and at Starbucks and having a spa night. All in all, not a bad way for a teenager to experience her first hurricane. She did feel a little sick toward the end of the day on Wednesday, but by then the school had power again and so she went back and spent the night there.
I? Spent a lot of time practicing my deep breathing. Not that I didn't trust the family that she was staying with to protect her, or the school for that matter. I know that they took their responsibilities seriously. My problem was that there was nothing I could do.
I couldn't fly her out, because the airports were closed. I couldn't go get her because we'd be driving into the path of a hurricane/snowstorm. So she was out in the world and I had to let it all happen.
For a control freak, this was not good.
It did, however, make me realize that I could slightly let go of things and that would be o.k. I could step back and not have to be the person who made all the plans and thought through all of the contingencies. I could step back.
Tiny baby steps to allowing myself to just be.
|The kitty helping me relax. By ignoring the papparazzi.|